Daily Routine, Life & Beginning 2017

Life!

You get so busy and adapted in a daily routine that you literally forget to try something creative, out of the schedule, out of the box. And to my surprise, when you don’t have that schedule to follow, you just tend to sit blank. So blank that you can’t believe yourself. Yes, I’m talking my condition right now. As soon as I open my eyes, I need to get ready and rush for my college. We’re so occupied 8-4pm that no thought haunts me. But as soon as I get free at 4, I don’t understand what to do. I’ve been feeling such since a couple of weeks I guess. A while ago, I was at my friend’s place, who’s married to my professor. I was at her place for more than an hour and I couldn’t talk about any damn thing. This feeling kills inside. It’s like, sitting, thinking about nothing, scrolling down Facebook and Instagram in loops and feeling like a shit.
Thankfully, Mr Sil asked me to write something for the blog and I started doing some (I don’t understand what I’m writing) but at least some work. He’s the one who truly understands me and knows me more than I know myself. He exactly knows how to enlighten my mood and make me work. He has all the way to make feel creative all again. Well, I can be most probably wrong but I think I got a minor bipolar disorder. I mean I’ve never been such. Always did I keep myself engaged in some work, really innovative work. And now, writing some shit, staring out, and eating a lot of junk.
Me and He just had a beautiful trip to Matheran, a secluded (from vehicles) hill station. I gotta write about the trip and also about another grand 2000km roadtrip that we’ll be doing this weekend. You’re definitely gonna enjoy the details of the trip. Surprisingly, I feel like I’m gonna get back to writing. I SHOULD BE WRITING. IT’S ONE OF THE MOST PASSIONATE THINGS TO ME.

Happy New Year! Thanks.

– Ms Sil.

From Right Questions To Wrong Answers Or, Vice Versa?

The thing I would say is, when you grow up you tend to get told that, the world is the way it is. And you should live your life inside that world, try not to bash into the walls too much.. Try to have a nice family life.. Have fun.. Save a little money.. That’s a very generic and limited approach to life. It can much broader once you discover a very simple fact. That everything around you that you call life, is made by people that were no smarter than you. You can change it, influence it. You can build your own things that other people can use. The minute you understand that you can poke life.. push something in and something will pop out the other side. You can change and mold it. That’s may be the most important thing is to shake off this erroneous notion that the life is there and, you are just gonna live in it vs embracing it, changing it, shaping it, improving it to match your inner voice’s demands. Once you learn that, you will never be the same again.

I would say that’s what happened to me a long back. I discovered the different between generic vs personalized way of living and embracing things. But I could never image that building a personalized life that matches your inner voice’s demand would be so much more difficult.

I still don’t understand why people like sports. They get so emotional over the weirdest things. But I do see the beauty in the rules, the invisible code of chaos hiding behind the menacing face of order. I don’t understand how people can find joy in little things.. Probably it’s important for human survival. Frankly, I could never get it..

People like to keep the journal. It’s the only way to program your routine like it’s supposed to. I keep my bedroom free of computer or internet access. All that’s left for me is ordinary analog sleep. Ending the day’s loop, you might not think that it’s a way to live. But why not? Repeating the same tasks each day. Without ever having to think about them. Isn’t that what everybody does? Keep things on repeat.

When you look closely at the seams between order and chaos, do you see the same things I see. The strains, the tears, the glimpse of truth hidden underneath. Why do they fight so desperately to mask what they are? Or is it that they become what they are when they put on the mask? Sometimes I wonder what you hide behind it. What mask do you wear? Or are you just as afraid as the rest of them? Me? Am I afraid? Nah, man. I am different.

An entrepreneur in me has become my god and like all gods, that madness takes you prisoner. People think their worship is some key to happiness. That’s just how a hidden person in you owns you. Even if I am not crazy enough to believe that distortion of reality. So fuck God. He’s not a good enough scapegoat for me.

Better the devil you know than devil you don’t, right?

Maybe the entrepreneur in me is unplugged, powerless! He’ll try to wear me down but as long as I stick to the regimen, he can’t take control. No matter how much of an illusion I think this is. That’s what the control of regimen, my routine journal, my perfectly constructed loop, what this whole thing’s been about. A gap in my consciousness.

May be its not about avoiding the crash, the fatal failure that could be ahead of me. But it’s about setting a breakpoint. To find the flaw in the code, fix it and carry on until you hit the next flaw. It’s a quest to keep on going, to always fight for footing. Maybe we are all stumbling from the right questions to the wrong answers. Or from the right answers to the wrong questions. It doesn’t matter where you go or where you come from, as long as you keep stumbling. That’s all it takes and that’s as good as it gets.

This game I have agreed to is dangerous. Maybe I will end up destroying a part of myself. win or lose, for better or worse, the entrepreneur in me is a part of me that makes me, me. The world that I have always wanted. I would like very much to fight for it. It’s just like chess.

In chess, external help isn’t allowed. That’s the beauty of this game. You are locked into a set of moves as determined by your previous choices. Your options dramatically changing with every decision. There is no lifeline. There is no external force at play. It is a pure battle of two opponents, or in this case, one! The game always concludes in stalemate. But you need a winner, so you always reset until you find it. You can think all the moves you want but, at the end of the day, the moves that an entrepreneur in you is making are the ones you are telling him to make.. And there are over 9 million possible positions after three chess moves each. There are over 288 billion different possible positions after four moves. A number of 40 moves game is greater than the number of electrons in the observable universe. You don’t need to know those outcomes. You just need to be able to see ahead of your opponent. But how can you when your other opponent is you? Stalemate. You can’t beat him and he can’t beat you. You could play again, but you will always be at this impasse.

When a computer gets hit with a kernel panic, there’s only so much you can do. An internal fatal error is hard to recover from. Probably that’s what has happened to me. Any second an entrepreneur in me is going to come back and my mind will be under siege again. I will wear that charming mask and burn rubber to get back on the track.

A distinct friend called up and said, I didn’t get placed in campus rounds. Thinking of trying my luck with building a startup. Did you ever consider whether entrepreneurs are born or made? You cannnot program yourself to be one. It has to be within you, a completely strange avatar of your own that commands you, dominates you, controls you and manipulates every move to match what he desires to become, to reach the milestone that he wants to conquer.

Dealing with your own mind is probably the most powerful takeaway of entrepreneurship. It can make you mentally invincible…

Laters!

– mr sil

Introducing…Mr Silveronika!

Hello dear Silveronika followers! I am the guy ‘Miss Silveronika’ keeps talking about. Let’s call myself Mr Silveronika. I would be penning down my thoughts on my better half’s canvas.

Little bit about me- I am a crazy digital entrepreneur, I have been in and around the technology, startups and wildly growing tech business for almost 7 years. Started out quite early in life at the age of 13 as a tech blogger, I still do write for a tech publication. Been in different shoes since then. Tried my hands with programming, wrote some J2ME apps back in 2008-09, bartered them for latest gadgets. I was fond of building custom Android ROMs, kernels, bootloaders. Started a IT service and consultancy when most of you were in senior school, made big bucks, spent all the bucks. Made spectacular mistakes at very early age. Got in a undergrad school – dropped out of undergrad school. Since 2014, my mind is obsessed with building a product company, the next big thing! I built 2 half baked product companies since then, failed big time. I carry priceless learning lessons with me. Right now I am onto building another product company. Certainly not repeating the mistakes made in past. Quite positively this will fly off!

I am a philanthropist in my own way. I keep sharing knowledge and learnings. Distribution of what is lacking in the world today. We have enough people with wealth and donation funds. Apart from all this, I am a nomad motorcycle traveler. It’s a passion, it’s something that I absolutely have to do and I could never imagine not doing it. Traveling on motorbike is part of who I am and what I want to be. For me, it is filter for the brain. It is a high, it’s a good high. There is nothing that connects me in that special way to an environment. Most of my long tours are with Miss Silveronika. Motorcycle tours blend our souls and perfect moments together.

I have learnt the life in hard way. I have made good money, I have lost the good sum. Made bad investment decisions. Made some foolish expenses too. I have learnt the value of time, money, expertise and the right set of motivation in a hard way. I believe that, you can only keep what you give away. My approach to life is to share the knowledge, my learning lessons with as many people as I can. Lot of people have hoard mentality to keep. Be it wealth, knowledge or information. I am not one of them. I genuinely feel that one must appreciate things and put them out there in the world. If you want more support, you need more approach. life is simple as weighing machine. Life is a journey, it’s not about the outcome. If you start looking out for the horizon and mountain top, you will never be satisfied. Cheer a drink or two at the milestones and keep moving. I have learnt that, wherever you are today in your life journey, embrace it. Bring the level of appreciation and gratitude. I write in with mind flow, most of my writing is unstructured. I Dream, I Think, I Feel and I Write! Never fail to DREAM. Through my writing, I wanna challenge you guys to live a bigger life and bigger goals.

 

Thank You!

– Mr Silveronika